Here I am, 6AM, at the LCCT, waiting for my flight to Bangkok on a work trip. Well this should be a time off period for something we have agreed on (though i’m not so sure if it is for her).

Boarding time is due in another 15mins, but I just wanna take time to write this. There is really not anything particular that i’m waiting in my life, just that right moment to come by, just like waiting for that flight. The exciting part of waiting in life is, you’ll never know when’s that right moment until it’s really happening before your eyes, and you’ll have to be ready for it.

Life for the past 6 months have shown me quite a lot of turning of corners and surprises, but I’ve yet to feel that "that" moment has come. I wonder if it’s gonna come in the near future. I know a lot of times expectations will come with disappointment, but I just can’t stop having expectations. Think I picked up the positive attitude already, I guess. I’ve changed, in numerous ways.

Now all I wanted to do is, to prepare myself, to be a better person everyday, and carefully anticipating for that right moment to come. Then I’ll be on my flight, to where I wanted to be (or to be with who I wanted to be).

It’s really been awhile since my last post. I’d say I’ve been really busy with life. Well anyway this is gonna be an all-words post though.

To talk about Valentine’s Day, I’d start with this: I have never ever really celebrated it before, until this 27th year of my life.

It is really my pleasure to have her companionship on this day. Well it was not really an intended celebration, but to have someone to be with on this day, regardless of the identity yet, is really something to be cherished. Well we met approximately 6 months back. That time I was going through some turmoil in life. But as time goes by, as wounds heal and eyes opened, I began to see new things from new perspectives. She was absolutely gorgeous on this day. As for the whole evening, there seemed to be an aura making her glow out in my sight.

Nothing serious has happened yet, but being around her, I feel the warm, comfortable sensation which I have not felt for a very very long time. Surprisingly, I couldn’t recall when was that last time I felt this way. I surely do hope she feels the same too when lots of things can be "grown" out of this. It just makes me wanna be a better person just when being around her (haha, bugs me why I feel that, but I still feel it’s not a bad thing!).

Dinner was fine, except for the fact that she was having gastric. Didn’t wanna over-react and go through the pressure thing, so I tried to draw her attention away from gastric pain to plain meaningless jokes. Really a bit amazed how meaningless I can be. After dinner, we actually went all the way to PJ just to have a look for ourselves the marriage proposal billboard ad, which she eventually wrote a blog post about it. The moment we passed by the ad, for that moment I thought I saw her heart melt a bit, with eyes twinkling.

For the commoners out there, this evening might seem usual, casual, and maybe a bit boring too. But to me, every second was like sun bathing by the coast of Oaxaca in Mexico, like running through the cool breeze blowing across the flower fields of Holland. I’m beginning to blabber, and it could go on and on.

I need all the luck I can get, so for every person who will be reading this, wish me luck and I’ll have enough of it to build the courage and overcome any obstacles. And then maybe I could be her Pooh :D.