一个人住，久了，渐渐觉得吃晚餐是件蛮头痛的事。是啦，可能真的有点无病呻吟啦什么的。可是一个人住，要煮嘛下班回来就嫌太累、太麻烦、太晚了、又不能煮太多；到外面吃嘛，不是嫌太远、太贵、太不好吃、太寂寞、太不安全，就是太懒惰 :P。我知道啦，又是我的问题。就说我是无病呻吟发下牢骚啦。

前几天父母回来老家暂住，真的是不管老妈子煮的是什么，总之把食物往嘴里送就对了。老妈子总不会下毒吧 连续两天下班回来就有新鲜热辣的晚餐上桌可以吃，似乎好久都没有试过如此幸福了。不自觉，胃口也大了。是啦，“斤两”也增加了。不管，就是爱吃。没吃的，我真的不行。

虽然自己的性格是可以独个儿行事的孤狼，但也总不能每天“一枝公”用餐吧！总得想想谁可以陪一陪我啊……很可惜的，我想陪的人不想陪我，没时间给我，也只好认命啦……爸妈在的几天，总希望可以找时间陪陪他们，哪怕只是吃晚餐而已。其实也是他们陪我啦。自己一个人的，有多少人可以天天陪你吃晚餐？陪你浪费时间？独个儿行事、吃晚餐等等，都只是“训练”来的，形势所逼而已，有头发有谁想当癞痢啦……

Saw this movie yesterday, Hero Wanted. Now I’m not boasting about me being able to accept almost all types of movie genre, but this movie really did struck me, though I’d think that not everybody will be able to understand it. I’m just not gonna do a movie post on it. A Day to Be Alone, is its ending song, by One Less Reason. And I really like it too. Wanna dedicate this to her. Hope you will be listening to it. Lyrics is below. File is here.

She said I wonder when it’ll be my day
‘Cause I’m not too far from breaking down
All I’ve got are screams inside
But somehow they come out in a smile
And I’m wondering if I’ll always feel this way, this way

(Chorus)
Tell me about those nights you stayed awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you’d rather die alone
Than being stuck here with me
And maybe you’ve fallen down
And maybe you just took the long way home
But baby you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror you’ll see a smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, yeah me

One day you’re gonna see things my way
You gave me so much room that I can’t breathe
When all I’ve got are pictures to view
It was nothing before and I started with you
For some reason it’s supposed to be that way, that way

(Chorus)
Tell me about those nights you stayed awake
Tell me about those days you hated me
Tell me how you’d rather die alone
Than being stuck here with me
And maybe you’ve fallen down
And maybe you just took the long way home
But baby you could never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror you’ll see a smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me, yeah me

(Bridge)
If I could shrink it down and put it in your hands
We made it hurt so much, I can’t forget the past
Just tell me what to say, show me what to do
Then I could forgive me and I would forgive you

(Chorus)
And maybe you’ve fallen down
And maybe you just took the long way home
But baby you will never love you like me
And one day this will fade away
In the mirror you’ll see a smiling face
And standing next to you will always be me
You know will always be me, and I will wait
Always be me, til I see your smiling…

诚实，不是应该无时无刻都诚实的吗？也许是年纪大了、涉世深了、久了，开始发觉，要诚实，真的很难。

有时因为面子，我们吹牛；有时因为隐私，我们说谎隐瞒真相；更有的时候，我们连为什么要说谎也不记得、不知道了。

遇过这么多人，我承认我都曾经以上述几个理由，在某些事情上，对朋友、家人或甚至是爱人都说过谎。但是我累了。已经不再想知道为什么要说谎了，也不想再说谎了。

遇到你，不知怎么的，竟让我很自然地得尝所愿。在你面前，我从来都不觉得有说谎的必要。我只想做你身边的一个值得信赖与信任的人。

I just can’t stop smiling.

Now I’m not a quiet person. Actually, I really like to talk, a lot, any topics. Those who know me well will know that. But I realized, whenever I’m around her, I just don’t talk. It was as if words loose their meanings in front of her. She’s all that has meaning. Everything around just blurred away. In the car, lining up for getting movie bites, walking out of the theatre, walking to the car, we just really never talked much. But, everything just felt right and comfortable, where everything seems to be where they should be.

I never felt like talking anything more to let her understand and know that I really mean it.

I may look like an idiot, but I just can’t help it, I just can’t stop smiling.

It’s love… it’s her, I guess.

刚才去吃了很好吃的福建面。回家途中一直在想东西。许多念头不自禁在脑里打转。想到了戒、想到了瘾、想到了你，霎时很想把感觉都部落起来。

听着你烧录给我的歌，我把车停好了。歌还在播着，心已经飞到部落去了。踏出车，突然呆了。我竟然忘了要部落什么了！顿时心情有如失去意义，竟然忘了你的事情！我不停思索、不停想着。坐、立、走、跑、看、想、听、吃、喝都没做，记忆突然有曙光，记起了！难熬的心情终于有了着落。

此时失而复得，让我想起Leona Lewis的那首歌，Yesterday。任时间、任未来、任命运、任注定都拿走了我们以后有的一切可能，它们永远都不能拿走我们的昨天、我们的回忆。

如果有一天，我患了老人痴呆，记忆都没了，失而永不复得了，请你，别让我再让痛苦地活着，就是最好的仁慈了。