听着周董的歌，不自禁在google开始搜索有关“幸福”字眼的图片。不知道是想看看别人对幸福的定义、幸福的模样、幸福的形态、还是想看看不知道可不可以跟自己扯上边，就看见这个。真的觉得很有意思。可是还是会问自己，说好的幸福呢？我真的不知道，有谁可以告诉我吗？

“其实喜欢一个人的那种感觉，真的是很奇妙的，你会无法控制自己。除了无时无刻都想见到对方，了解他、关心他的一切，你还会无条件为他做所有的事，希望对方会欣赏你为他所做的一切。”

近日看了一集连续剧，留意到有这一句对白。虽然类似的对白似乎在许多连续剧中出现不少，甚至有些老套，可是却令我想起一件事。我想起的就是，我似乎很久，没有这样的感觉了。

也许很久没有遇到可以让我有这种感觉的人，亦也许是我已经忘记了这种感觉，可是我自己觉得是后者的可能性比较大。

觉得有点可悲……

忘记了爱一个人的感觉，是多可悲的一件事。时常在想，自己到底会不会遇到命中注定的她。现在想来，也许是遇到了却忘记、不知道该怎么做了，也不一定。我承认，我迷失方向了……

3 months since the last post, not sure if any one misses me but yeah I’m on a new job for 3 months already. Took quite some effort to get myself confirmed on the job passing the probation.

This new job is like a consultant+programmer hybrid, with more similarities to a consultant than a programmer. And trust me, everyone, well almost everyone, is a PRODIGY. Everyone’s unbelievably smart. I’m not a prodigy but I like this job, this company and its working culture very very much. So since the beginning, I’ve prepared myself to give at least a 200% effort. So those who always hang out with me, sorry guys and gals, I don’t mean to always ffk.

One thing though, it seems that my life is “stuck”. Stagnant. Flat lined. Dull. Average Joe. Whichever term you choose, I guess it pretty much says it all. Some other things, which I don’t wanna pen it down here, has happened lately in my life which has inevitably lead my life to this point. I don’t know how exactly I can pull myself out of this bottleneck period as it seems no matter what I do, I feel so demotivated. Not feeling like going out, not feeling like going on a trip, not feeling like hanging out with friends. I’m stuck. Just wanna sit at home and do nothing. This is really bad especially for someone who’s as outgoing as me. Never really realized this trend until one day I turned down 3 yam cha sessions in a day.

Hmm… maybe if my friends would keep on inviting me to outings and yam cha sessions and hang outs then one day I would heal? Well I’m not even sure if I have such friends. No offence ya guys and gals!
Oooh still at office now, damn bz damn tired… wanna go home…